So Simon and I had a long talk about all of this last night and he still just isn't able to grip it. I don't know if he doesn't want to or cares, or he just doesn't know how, but he hasn't said ANYTHING. To me this is more hurtful than him just telling me he doesn't know what to say, even though I told him what I need to hear. I made my appointments this morning. I will have my mammo and u/s Thursday morning at 10am and I see Dr. Brumstead (RE) on Friday at 2:30pm. I am super nervous and a little upset that I will be doing this on my own, but optimistic that I will finally get some answers. I don't know what to do about this... do I just NOT tell Simon whats going on? His attitude is just so shitty and I think it upsets me all the more. I may just back down and wait for him to ask me whats going on. As far as charting, I have pretty much given up on ever O'ing or having any sort of pattern; yet I will continue to chart for TTC and RE's sake. I am having a super big craving for KFC... mac & cheese and crispy chicken so I must shower, pick up my girls and go indulge. Good Lord.....good thing a black man appreciates a fat ass... cause mine is definitely getting bigger after today!
I hope your husband comes around. My husband has a whatever take on life. He's happy either way. I stopped mentioning to him when I take any type of tests (pregnancy or OPK) It's so hard to get them to understand everything. I think they think getting pregnant is as easy as 1,2,3. But its not. My husband has seen the things I do (reading tcoyf, temping and charting) but doesn't ask questions or get in my way. I think if they truely realized how tough it is they could be more understanding. Good luck with your appointments.
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